Closure 2016

  We can always plan, but not all that we plan can be happened. So do us. We plan that we will happily in the relationship, but we forget; that all the promises can be broken. All the vows that we said to each other can be broken too.

  I didn’t know how it can happened, or how I can let it happened. The entire thing that happened becomes so fast. I don’t know how to safe us anymore. I feel like drowning. I feel truly suffocated when you asked me to choose between you and him.

  The answer that I gave you, is simple, I choose both. I was about to settle with him actually, to leave him for good for you. But, you made it hard for me. You made me feel thorn apart. I can’t easily leave him, not so easy. I do love him but in the same time I love you too. Bear in mind, he is before you, not after you.

  You may say that I am a selfish person, I am bad girl, but you don’t know the real story. True, I neglected both of you, but the one who try to coming back is him, not you. How badly I want to be with you; if you the one who simply retreat.

  I really wish that you have the courage to grab me and to pursue me no matter what happened. Didn’t I know that you want to settle and move on with your life without me anymore?